My life before I have Jesus..

I used to think success is everything in life. Acceptance and recognition from people was so important for me. Asides from having a beautiful family and friends around me, I lacked nothing. Yet there was a longing to search for something, and I ended up searching for success ever since I was in kindergarten. Years passed by and after having all the success in my primary school as well as secondary, the longing for searching grew even stronger.

I wonder why... I wonder where could i find satisfaction that would stop my searching. Once in Form 3, I stepped into a church after being long-persuaded by my dear sister. I went, partly willingly and partly unwillingly. That was the first time I entered into place where feeling and emotion couldn't be expressed. Everything is usual; building, cement, stage and people. Nothing unusual. However, there seemed to be something in the air that made you feel peaceful and joyful. (soon I know, that is the presence of God) :)

The pastor started to share that there is a great inventor who created the heavens and the earth. That same great inventor also created me. So only he knows how to really operate me and make me feel useful and satisfied according to how the created me.

The pastor said this, "Anyone of you that always like searching and searching for something, you are actually searching for God, who can truly satisfy your life. In Him, you are complete because He created you. You can't program your own life according to your own program. You need the real true programmer, that is none others but God, your creator. He gives you life, and everything. Without Him, you are empty, and no matter how many things you have in the world; friends, money, car, success, etc, etc, etc... you will still feel lacking and still want to search something." Empty.....that was the word to descibe my feeling for the years of my life.

He continued, "You just need one thing, and you will stop searching. You need God, and you must accept Jesus into your life. Friends, stop searching and searching for something that can truly satisfy you. You can't find anything on this earth that can satisfy you forever. Only Jesus can."

I was filled with thoughts "I need Jesus. I want Jesus." However I was filled with another thoughts too "How my family will think of me? How my friends will think of me?"

The pastor after that shared, "If Jesus is in your life, it will be a new friendship you have. It is a wonderful relationship that you are going to have with Jesus. Accept Jesus into your life is even easier than making friends. Friends-we need time to trust them. Jesus, who is sinless and perfect, you can trust Him in everything. He is God and He is great God."

Then I started to think accepting Jesus is like making new friend, somemore this will be the best friend ever because he knows me and loves me very much. I need not worry how my family and friends will think of me. It will be great!

That night, I stood up, as a sign to accept Jesus into my life. There was a pouring of joy and peace in my heart that could not be expressed. I just love Jesus and the moment I opened my heart to accept Him, I just knew he had been waiting for me for years to be my friend and to love me.

Until now, I never regret of the decision I made. I have been changed by Jesus after that gradually, day by day and my life is different now. I know the plan and purpose He has for me.

Friends, stop searching, if you searching for something to satisfy you. Music, gadgets, Iphone, handphone, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, disco, travelling, hobby and etc can't give you longlasting satisfaction. Only Jesus can.